28 August 2007

Some things last a lifetime

Our moment's gone.

26 August 2007

Bikes Rock!

"Every car a murder, every bicycle a love affair"

25 August 2007

Sometimes...Isolation

sometimes, i just wanna be alone. no, i'm not mad. i'm not sad and i don't need/ want cheering up. oh and is it really necessary to say, "come on don't be a party pooper. we were busy today too" or ask "what's the matter? waht can i do to make it better". nothing is the matter except i am feeling and wanna be antisocial. nothing personal against you unless you keep insisting and make me make it about you.

i work a lot and have to deal with hearing lots of fucked up things and trying to help people cope with that in a world that seems less and less friendly is hard. It wears on me and sometimes my brain just wants to be numb. i wanna be tofu just sitting there bland, boring and opinionless.

i don't wanna talk. shut up your voice is poking at my raw nerves. i don't wanna play nice nice and i certainly don't wanna be drawn outta myself. just leave me alone and go on with your day. sometimes i wanna be asked, but not so you can solve anything just because (sometimes) it's just nice to be asked. other times, stay away.

it's ok to be ornery. it's fine to be pensive and quiet. it's normal. i've never signed any contract that promises that i'll be 100% miss sugar dumpling all the time. and please, don't tell me that i am even better when i am in a foul mood...that i am a riot because sometimes i am quite funny when i am in a funk. in fact, i make a point of being grumpily funny, but this is not one of those times.

i just wanna be a bitch and not be told to snap out of it nor be told that everything will be better tomorrow. everything is just fine today. i just don't feel like being leader of the outgoing wagon today.

yes, i am having an i don't like green eggs and ham day and i don't wanna be reminded that maybe i do. i just wanna be alone until i bounce back to my miss everyone likes me because i am so cool ole self.

i don't need/want you to save me. today, i don't wanna save the world. altho someone really should, but today that someone ain't gonna be me.

Nothing to look at here, folks. Move along.